The Truths We Don't Say Out Loud

SHAIDY Conversations — Pilot Episode

Before we ever find our voice, choose our path, or step into purpose, a story is already being written around us.

Our stories begin with lineage.

With culture.

With loss, love, resilience, and faith passed down before we fully understand their weight.

I am a first-generation American. My parents, grandparents, and great-grandparents were all Jamaican—born and raised. That culture shaped me deeply: my work ethic, my values, my resilience, and my understanding of community. It taught me how to survive, how to strive, and how to stand tall—but it also taught me how to stay silent through pain.

And that tension is where SHAIDY Conversations was born.

Who I Am — And Who Women Are Allowed to Be

I am first and foremost a child of God.

I am a creative, a visionary, an educator, a student of life.

I am a lover, a fighter, a sister, a daughter, a friend.

I am a mother to twin boys who changed me forever.

By night—and often by necessity—I am a serial entrepreneur:

The Legacy Curator.

A Realtor.

A Lender.

A financial strategist.

A brand consultant.

An event planner.

A podcast host.

And like many women, I’ve learned that no matter how much we carry, the world still asks us to condense ourselves.

Women are never just one thing.

Yet our personal trials and triumphs are often hushed beneath the roles we play.

Why SHAIDY Conversations Exists

SHAIDY stands for She Has An Intentional Destiny Yielding.

This platform has lived in my heart for years—long before it had a name, a microphone, or a release date. I remember being in high school, doodling logo ideas for “S.H.A.I.D.Y.” in my dream journal without fully understanding what it would become.

Years later, I started documenting my restart through my Ugly 30 Truth vlog—navigating entrepreneurship, postpartum identity, grief, and faith. What surprised me most wasn’t my own healing—it was how many women quietly said, “Me too.”

The truths we’re carrying are not unique.

They’re just unspoken.

SHAIDY Conversations exists to change that.

The Truths We Don’t Say Out Loud

If there is one silent struggle that shows up again and again for women, it is loneliness—especially during life’s major transitions.

For me, grief has been a lifelong companion.

I lost my mother at 14 after she battled cancer for two years. While I was still learning who I was, I found myself carrying not only my grief, but everyone else’s. I learned early how to be strong when what I really needed was to be held.

Later, I lost my grandfather—my peace, my protector—first to dementia, then to death during the pandemic. And then I lost my cousin KayDeanne, my best friend, my confidant, my constant, just one month after giving birth to my twins.

Each loss reshaped me.

Each season required a version of strength no one prepared me for.

The Pressure to “Have It All Together”

Despite how polished life may look from the outside, the truth is this: none of us has it all together.

Motherhood without being mothered long enough.

Entrepreneurship without a safety net.

Grief layered on joy.

Faith tested in silence.

There is an unspoken pressure for women to be capable, composed, and grateful—even when we are unraveling.

SHAIDY Conversations is where we say out loud:

I don’t have it all together.

And we stop apologizing for that truth.

When Friendships Shift

Grief and growth will rearrange your circle.

Losing KayDeanne showed me which relationships were built on convenience and which were rooted in care. I learned that loving people from a distance is not abandonment—it’s discernment.

The village changes.

And that’s okay.

The Intention Moving Forward

Womanhood is a series of decisions we quietly survive, grow through, and eventually outgrow.

We make choices we’re proud of.

Choices we’re healing from.

Choices we haven’t yet found the words for.

But none of it is random.

When we stay close to God, stay honest with ourselves, and stay willing to speak, our stories begin to make sense—not because they were easy, but because they were intentional.

This Is Just the Beginning

SHAIDY Conversations is a space where:

• Truth is safe

• Healing is possible

• Purpose is uncovered, not forced

Thank you for listening to my beginning.

My prayer is that this platform becomes a place where you feel seen, where shame loosens its grip, and where your story starts to feel like something God is shaping—not something you need to hide.

I’m your host,

Your Legacy Curator,

Shaina Mowatt

And this… is just the beginning.